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Beauty in the breakdown

Today was a very weird day. I had some of the most bizarre dreams but they made sense. They weren’t bizarre as in crazy, they just really touched me since I could understand them quite well. Not sure if they came to me from reading everyone’s dating posts but somehow it made me have dreams about 2 women that I really should of talked to but since I wasn’t in the right state of mind, I declined. They were both attractive, charming, delightful, friendly, polite. I really loved being in their presence when I was there.
Woman 1: I knew her since 5th grade. She was in gifted; the classes with the advanced kids, known as honors/magnet in high school. My mother, for some reason, wouldn’t allow me to be in gifted. We used to talk off/on whenever we saw each other, was too young to say, “Hey, may I have your number so that I can marry you when we are both 18?” She has gorgeous hair to this day. My sophomore year in high school, I caught the bus to school. About a block down (more like 30 feet) was her bus stop. I was too shy to say hello or any of that good stuff. 10th grade was my rebel year, parents going through divorce. I didn’t say a word to her, not even a bloody hi. Yes, I regret it, I really think I could have done better in those situations but hey, I wasn’t as “happy” as I am now.
Woman 2: I met her my senior year in high school, she was the smiling 24/7 type. I could make her laugh any minute of the day. When ever we spoke to accouter, there was major flirting. We both graduated that year, both planned to go to AIU so that we could obtain our bachelors in Information Technology. 2nd semester at AIU, I had Latin American Culture (gag). She just happen to be in it, we spoke to eachother on/off again. This time, it was a more, why don’t you ask me for my number kind of thing. You think I took advantage of the situation and asked her for it? Nope. I slacked off and at the end of the semester, switched colleges (I changed my major from Information Technology to Nursing, I had a brief run in with death. I soon found out Nursing is what I wanted to do, I wanted to help people, be around people.) I asked one of my friends that still goes to AIU for her email address at the school, sent a email but it seems she never checks her school email account (Like most people at that bloody school). I have to visit AIU a couple of times this week for transcripts but I’m hoping I catch her one of those days.
Beauty in the break down.. too much of it.

Happy Thanksgiving~

Happy Thanksgiving everyone~

Desktop of mine

Today wasn’t so bad. Woke up, worked, worked. And now I’m here~ I been looking at Junta’s devart page. He has some pretty spiffy desktop set ups. Made me want to customize one of my own. I planned to have a anime-based background for a change. It’s so hard at times to find a theme for StylesXP/WindowsBlind to go perfect with the desktop background. I think I did good for now, I plan to make more and add a toolbar. I like it. I also changed my desktop size to 1152×864. It’s not that small on a 17inch monitor. Seems that I have a thing for small text~

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Busy, busy

Been so busy, I haven’t been able to post as much as I been wanting to. This will soon change, I may have to enforce the “A post a day” rule. The posts wouldn’t be full of crap either, usually that’s what happens when you try to rush things. I was up late tonight, doing what you ask? I took time out to watch Napolean Dynamite. Though the movie was funny, it truely wasn’t worth it. I laughed about 3 times during the entire movie. Damnit, it was a waste. After that, I sat and began to draw. My piece is done!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS~

Art starring Wessu and STEFMAX~

Good Day (bow)

Today was a good day~ I got to sleep in today, haven’t been able to for a while. Though it’s 11:28PM right now, I will go to sleepy shortly after this entry. If you haven’t already, go read Wes’s excerpt from his Nanowrimo project! It is very weird and crazy, he even came close to putting it to an end! Good luck Wes, and I hope you finish it. I need something good to read, hehe. I have to say hello to Kana, my penpal, if you are reading this, “こんにちは友人! 歓迎された家!”. I am in the process of making this site look a lot better. Haven’t had time but I think I will redo the entire thing. Talked to T today, had a interesting chat with her but something was weird. Like always, should I say? I finally got my hands on a MFLO album! I love it~ “Come again….and again” is my favorite track. The music videos are really cool too. At first, I thought they just remixed other peoples music but they have their own albums, I had to get one.

Blinded

Wes pasted me a link to this kids blog.
“Despite living in NY/NJ and associating mostly with liberal-minded people, I am in the minority (being Jewish, I’m used to that).”
So for me its, “Being German, the comment stated above means nothing since it’s coming from him?” BIG TIME inside joke.

[11:39] <|Ku|> ha, liberal minded people.
[11:40] <|Ku|> No more Wes, I’m becoming angry. >:|
[11:40] <|Ku|> I been meaning to try out http://www.weps.org/
[11:41] Stef: what is making you angry now?
[11:42] <|Ku|> The silly Bush followers and how they are so special. shiet.
[11:42] oh
[11:42] Yay Florida voting Bush.
[11:42] <|Ku|> All the cubans voted for Bush, and the old people.
[11:42] <|Ku|> That’s why FL was his.
[11:43] Cubans up to no good.
[11:43] why the hell would “the cubans” vote for bush?
[11:43] <|Ku|> He’s against abortion isn’t he? And same sex marriages?
[11:43] yeah
[11:43] <|Ku|> Oh yeah, he has “morals”.
[11:43] <|Ku|> And the religion card too.
[11:43] but he’s also against anyone getting health care and anyone poor making any money lol
[11:44] not that “the cubans” are necessarily all poor people.
[11:44] how very true
[11:45] <|Ku|> Their stuck on abortions and same sex marriage, what about the war?
[11:45] <|Ku|> How come they never bring that up?
[11:45] <|Ku|> All the lives lost for no good reason at all.
[11:46] sure there’s a good reason
[11:46] oil, baby
[11:46] <|Ku|> But they can never say that, that’s when they spit out all the “good” stuff he has done.
[11:46] oh, and TERROR
[11:46] lol
[11:47] Wes: oil thta we never get!!!
[11:47] <|Ku|> yeah, TERROR is slapped in to every single american.
[11:47] God I hate Bush.
[11:47] Well, we do get it.
[11:47] For $2+ /gallon
[11:47] <|Ku|> Man, it gets to me sometimes. Everyone that supports him, rants and raves about him, as if hes some human god.
[11:48] <|Ku|> taking a bullet for bush would be something holy for them.
[11:48] I hope he chokes on a pretzel again.
[11:48] And dies this time.
[11:48] pretzel!
[11:49] yum…