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The passing of gases

So many things are changing! I am, growing up you could say. Not that I was still a “kid” before but I am becoming a lot more independent. Since me and my father got in to this giant argument around the holiday seasons, we have not said a word to eachother since. You may think it’s weird not talking to someone, especially a relative, that lives in the same house as you. It’s not weird at all, though he dislikes me and told me, “You are not welcomed here.” When my brothers and I were growing up, we rarely spoke/saw my father. We did not have that fatherly bond with him; none of us did. So, growing up and knowing the person he is, we still do not talk to him. I gave him a chance and down the drain it went. I am always the one to bite my tongue and take on others responsibilities, even people who have done bad things to me. My brothers always ask, “Are you guys talking yet?” I always have to point out that I have no reason to speak to him. Why, so I can be told negative things about myself and how I screwed up my life by not going in to the field I planned to. No thanks, speaking to negative people is not my forte. I know the kind of person my father is, he is very selfish, only plans to retire, and boast about how much money he has. Since we do not talk, everything that I use in this house, must be bought by I. From food, to simple little things like toothpaste. After a few months, with no job, it is becoming quite a hassle. I am going job searching tomorrow and I hope it pays off. I had a recent interview at Wendy’s but, like always, things didn’t go well. I will be sure to post about it soon. I have been keeping to myself lately, reading, listening to music, anything to keep my mind running. Which reminds me, must fill out FAFSA! I plan to attend summer classes at BCC. I know they are 5 days a week for 3 weeks but I need to catch up. I have taken a year out of school and I regret it. I don’t scourge myself for it but for that time I took out, I found myself or should I say, found more of myself. So in about 6 years I will be done, only to jump right back in to the school system. I have no problem with that at all, I do not dislike school. It tests your mind, gives you things to do and at times, you meet other cool people. Then there are always those other people that attend just because they have to. I’m looking forward to the years to come.