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The Promise

You tend to understand a certain situation when you are placed in ones position. It may take days, months, or years to understand what was felt. You may have been blind since you have never encountered a situation like one before.

Last night I watched The Promise. An incredible movie that did it’s justice on my heart. It did not just let me understand some things but it let me understand the feelings that were felt in a particular situation.

When one is weak at the heart, he/she will turn away any type of love, good or bad. In my case, it was the love of goodness. Even not saying love but friendship. Friendship can mean many things if the two have loved one another before. Saying good bye is one of the hardest things but doing it with a pure, open heart makes it not feel so bad.

I said good bye due to various reasons that ment much more to my heart. It did make me stronger in the long run and I do not regret doing it but the possibilities of something happening at the time were endless. The Promise touched on these things many times, giving one the ability to change their destiny. It is not always wrong to do so since in the modern day life we tend to do it all the time with the decisions that we make in life.

Fake love can become realalistic whether or not it is from lust or pity. Love is too high of an emotion to gently play with especially when it is of the partners and of yourself. I do hope the best for myself because with the heart I hold now, I am ready for any obtacles that are about to jump in my path.

Something has cursed me not to love again in a way. I am Qingcheng.

After the Effects

I have an all new respect for After Effects. At times when I didn’t know the program, I didn’t dislike it but I didn’t quite understand what it was used for. After watching hours of tutorials, I have grasped a feel for it due to understanding it a lot more. I plan to use it much more in the future. My whole summer will be spent working, studying, and designing. Sounds like a hectic summer but I view it as my summer vacation since I can choose what times I study/design rather than have school be forced onto my schedule. I have been trying not to get too lazy with my sleep and I have seem to be getting over it. Give me a few hours and I am ready to go!

Bookmarks to die for.

I have never been so pissed off before at an internet web browser.

Dear Opera,

Thank you for overwriting my two years worth of bookmarks. All were very sorted and named due to the greatness that Firefox once shared with me. Ever since I have been with you there have been the good and the bad times. I do respect how you are made but at times I want to punch you in the face. I don’t abuse people unless I get really mad and you have popped that bubble. Usually I don’t talk to programs like this but I know you and you know me so after I tell you get out don’t come back for make up sex because it isn’t happening. I can’t go on right now knowing how many wonderful sites I have lost. Seriously, it ment that much for me.

Love,
Stefan

It explains itself. I am not so angry now after writing that and laughing a little. Things happen, I can only try to brush this off so easily. This error digitally got me angry. Back to Stefan I go.

Orange Days (Thank you JTV)

There are many things on my mind lately and when it comes to jdorama, Orange Days has been there mainly. The story itself is very realistic and the script writers have seemed to make it very modern. They are college kids going through the rough times that many have been through when still in school. When becoming good friends, they form the Orange Society. It is made of 5 people, all friends, all writing in a orange journal about thoughts and feelings that they old inside their tender souls.

When it comes to shedding tears, only a few were lost on this jdorama. Mainly towards the middle, and then I was hit at the very end. Not by a tragic event or anything, but just by the thought of it. The thought that someone created this story and directed it so maturely. My free time has mostly been Orange Days. I watched it in a time spam of 3 weeks, I didn’t want to rush it. I always compare jdoramas to Summer Snow. A drama that I love and respect deeply. It will somehow always hold a place in my heart when it comes to thinking about life and the people within it. It sounds like a funny thing to say but it holds so much meaning. More than any typical thing you would see on TV. Especially if your watching TV in the U.S.

Summer is approaching. Summer classes are starting soon and I have yet to register. I don’t think I will this summer though, with there being many things I must due to the house: Clean out the garage, remodel my bedroom. I am in the market for a motorcycle. There has been a on-going silent battle among my family about why I would want to drive a motorcycle. I tell them it is something I want to do, it is a step through my life. A step I may regret but with my skills of driving and my sense of awareness, I don’t shush away the comments. I take them in knowing that if I was in the same position, I wouldn’t allow that person to get a motorcycle. There are just some things you must do for yourself. Maybe little by little, just to understand yourself a little more. I do hope to visit Germany this summer and greet my family with the biggest smile I have worn in my life.

Synopsis
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Kai Yuuki (Satoshi Tsumabuki) is in his senior year at university studying social welfare psychology. At present, he is in the middle of job-hunting season. He is finding it difficult with no job offers so far. One day, he meets a girl who is playing violin in the campus. She is Sae Hagio (Kou Shibasaki). In marked contrast to her beautiful tone and attractive looks, her personality is somewhat impertinent. And to top it off, she communicates through very vulgar sign language. Four years ago, she lost the most important thing for a violinist - her hearing. As a result Sae closed off her inner self from the outside world. Kai finds himself on a date with Sae, in place of his best friend. Unexpectedly, he comes into contact with Sae’s private side. Love, job-hunting, friendship… Setting a campus in spring as a dorama`s backdrop, it’s the start of a glittering youth drama.

–TBS