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Suminasen; but you don’t understand

Life is supposed to be lived to the fullest. Many people in life never get to see the good side of living. For me, my otosan (father) and okasan (mother) worked very hard to give me a good life. They are not materialistic by far but my mother does hold class. As I think about growing older, I want to give the same to my children. At that time, I do think for my future and what I will become. Saying to myself only time will tell seems to push me into more doubt. If I set goals like I have been doing, better things are due in no time. This is a topic that has kept me from sleeping many nights and I just lay in bed with music blazing my headphones as I count and go through each and every thought that passes through my mind. I am thankful for the learning process my parents have put me through. My okasan (mother) was for my younger years, and my otosan (father) was for my adult years. My otosan (father) made me understand life and people. That you must follow your heart and at times, you must make the right decision to benefit you. Never put luxury before yourself since it is not needed. My okasan (mother) gave me the ability to love and fight for what I think is right. She showed me that as a child, I can always show my emotion or love for something and not be ashamed. Even in the hard times, my brothers always marked me as her favorite because there was a special bond between us. When she cried, I cried tears for her and tears that made me; us stronger. Now it is 2007 and I see in a room that is being remodeled by myself. When I was younger, I thought I would not make it to the age of 22. It’s a very silly thing to say but as a child I didn’t have high hopes. I lived day to day without planning what I did ahead. My otosan (father) would silently push me to do good and my okasan (mother) was always my main support. In school, I was higher than average and my okasan (mother) pushed me for gifted/honors. Cramming education into my head gave me more knowledge to understand what I was blinded by. I feel bad at times for my brothers, that they didn’t see what life truly was early enough. Everyone says keep your hopes high but what about other peoples hopes? How do you make them understand what it is to live? It is so much harder in this generation due to the corruption of everything. I want to be there but I can’t! I want my destiny to include everyone! Why don’t they understand this! Why must they be so selfish! I give you my all, and you give me a doubtful look! I am your brother, why can’t you listen to me! Why didn’t you listen to me — Life would of been so much easier. In my life, I don’t want to have regrets but not being to help is a regret that is very heavy on ones soul. When looked upon by my parents, I am always looked upon to do the right thing. They know in my books, failure is not a word or an option. I am that shining star that can make them feel proud again. I want to be that shining star. I must be that shining star!

To my family, to my friends, to my readers, Domo Arigato (Thank you very much) for being there for me. You are my energy to make my world keep spinning. Sorry for such a moving topic but some of my soul was released through my finger tips. Even if you don’t comment, I am thankful for you giving my article a glimpse.

She’s on your mind

Up late once again, but I feel the need for sleep slowly attacking my eyes. I am back on track with my sleep but I took a nap earlier today so I am not too tired. Life has been quite sweet. The field of work has been great though with budgets we seem to be somewhat lacking. Not because we are not selling but there is no one to sell to but that can not be used as an excuse. You can sell something to someone; something they don’t want but something they need. That’s a real salesman. I met this awesome girl in my Sociology class and we began to talk. We have yet to hang out yet so I don’t know what she’s fully like. A date is scheduled for tonight so I hope all goes well. I am back to being a book worm at school but I try to make time for the things I want to do.

“Let’s sing this love song together.”

Working for latinos

Lately, I think about the people I speak to at work a lot. Not every minute of my waking life but I tend to think how ashamed some people should be. I get many people that speak to people rudely or people that doesn’t the same language as I. I don’t give off negative vibes when this occurs, I just give a small smile and laugh in the back of my head. When people approach and suddenly start to whip me with their spanish tongue, I lightly tell them, “No. English please.” I don’t know how to can come to another country, with your family, and not speak a word of that country’s language. It boggles my mind. It tickles my funny bone. Why and how could you put your family in that kind of situation? If you visiting Florida, then you have your reason, I welcome you to my humble state. For the ones that snuck here, please, stay in the woods. I do not appreciate your tongue nor do I want to do business with you. I had one lady tell me, “Your in the wrong place honey if you don’t know spanish.” I just replied to her, ” No. 1 No. 2 No. 3″ I said it 3 times in a very calm voice, she looked at me as if I just told her to go to hell. Good thing she couldn’t read faces because her face would have been correct.

I dislike most people

It’s not that I dislike EVERYONE, only some people. Mainly because a lot of people are extremely rude. They don’t know how to talk and respect other people without their giant heads getting in the way. I deal with this daily, I keep up with it daily. I don’t let it get to me though but a person can only take so much. To fight back with their ignorance, I give them a fist full of joy. This joy destroys their giant head and shows them that their attitude doesn’t affect me. I win, you lose. I win every day.